There are so many things I gotta blog about. My sister's wedding, which was eons ago, my birthday and a few other stuff. But seriously I've got no mood. I've got a few posts waiting to be completed. Sad, yeah? Well I'm getting poked at by all sides once again, so, I'll put something here! *drags feet*



Finally, I've managed to shed my needless sweetie-pie-ousity online. Here's proof. Again, happened on Friendster.







Boy Toy wrote:

> Single But Unavailable...Can Be Seen Not

> Touched.....Yeah That's Me.....Shekh here....

>

> 24 years old....working in a Shipping Firm as a

> Marketing Executive....I was casually browsing

> thru friendster...and by chance saw ur pic...found u

> sweet looking....read ur profile....found it

> interesting...Hmmm...

>

> So wanted to ask ya...Wanna be friends? Expand

> our horizons?

>

> Do add me ok....graveyard_07@hotmail.com or u

> can add me in MSN also....either way...lets get to

> know each other...Hmm..

> Hey can i sms you good night sweet

> dreams...what do you think? or if u dont like de

> idea, i will msg u in de morning? If you think that's

> possible, why not give me ur hp number, i'll msg

> ya, I know you might think, how to give

> number so fast right? But then again, trust builts a

> friendship, so if u trust me, i'll sms ya...

>

> Friendship last longer than love. So care to be

> friends? If u like smsing....well....see how ok?

> Take care till then. Till i hear from you, take care.

>

> Best Regards

>

> I am a nobody, nobody is perfect, therefore I am

> perfect









And my reply was:





Gosh you're weird.



Anyways, I don't give my number out to ppl I don't know. Neither do I expect morning or goodnight msgs from them. See, I'm attached. Even if I wasn't, I'd find you way too creepy to risk my sanity for by making you my friend.



Toodle loo!





DhanYa





Not very bitchy nor cutting, I know. But hey, it's an improvement. :-) He had it coming though. So cheesy and stupid. Not to mention freaky. He just creeped me out. *shudders*



Oh, and just in case you guys are wondering, I'm not doing this to make Jay jealous or some nonsense like that. I post these stuff cos they've got high entertainment value. Anyway, no reason for jealousy, cos I treat such stuff as sad jokes. *smiles at J*

It's my birthday celebration at my house tmr. And I don't know wat to wear.



God.



The stuff in my cupboard all make me look like a frggin whale. Means, I've put on weight! I went from a 24-inch waist to 26, can you believe/friggin believe/@$%*ing believe that? Thank god I've gone down to 25 now. Still, I'm traumatised.



Note to self: Must excercise. No more chocolates.



Riiiiiight.



So, I'm going to White Sands to get me a blouse. No need for a new pair of jeans cos my jeans fit me the same, weirdly. Or maybe I shld get a new pair of jeans all the same. See, I'm always wearing the same two pairs of jeans. Time for change! Or maybe not. Cos those are my favourite pairs and they fit me so well. I'll probaby cast my new pair aside like I always do.



Mommy's calling me. Sigh.

Why do you look at me that way? What's it in me that's worth all those nasty things you say? Why do I offend you so? Why do you offend me so? Why not try to understand me, and not try to change me according to your understanding of who you want me to be? I can't think the way you do.



I'm not who you want me to be. You're not how I want you to be either. But I don't say you're a bad mother. Because you're not. But if you feel that way, no doubt it's because of me. You've said as much yourself.



I'm sorry for being the way I am. I truly wish I could ignore you, throw your words out of the window. But I can't. I'll change for you, if not for me. Because I know you won't be around very long and I want you to realise that you aren't such a bad mother afterall.



If only you believed how much I love you, above anything else. Be it the sun, the rain or touch-me-nots. You top them all.

I want to feel soft, fine sand beneath my feet. Such luxury. If only that is how I'd feel always. If only troubles would cease to be, and love was more obvious than hate. If only hate wouldn't eat your insides and make you spit out rotten words. If only love grew well and steadily, spoiling us for something as low as hate. Wouldn't it be lovely? If only all these wishes of mine were to come true. The luxurious feeling of soft, fine sand beneath my feet would be in me.

Managed to catch Kishy online. At last! The convo's sorta lame, so the lamest part of it deserves to be pubished. *beams at Kishy*







°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

hmph



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

its okay i guesss, sash and i are planning an outing i think



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

oh, a movie thingie, yeah?



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

no a bbq cum drinking thingy since youre legal and all.



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

oh!!



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

I was gonna say that!!!



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

looks like she told you already!



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

uhuh!



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

sounds like fun doesnt it?



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

totally!!!



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

alcohol alcohol alcohol alcohol alcohol alcohol alcohol alcohol alcohol alcohol alcohol alcohol



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

yea!



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

hahah



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

i so cant wait



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

it'll be fun for sure



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

yeah man!!!! woo!



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

oh, mmm.



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

?



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

bbqs are expensive!



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

I'm so broke!



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

then we'll just drink



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

and, a picnic!!



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

potluck!



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

okay!



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

thats better.



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

yeah, I'm smart I know



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

friendlier on the pockets



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

very much so



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

I need all the friendship I can get



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

for my pockets, I mean



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

hahah



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

i know what you mean totally!



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

uh huh! *shakes ass bimbotically in ecstacy*



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

hahah



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

oh my!



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

ha!



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

oh hey



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

you didn't wish me happy birthday



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

you btr now!



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

*growls*



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

i was going to tmr actually. but since tmr is now today....



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

happy 18th birthday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

thank you!!!!!! *jumps abt*



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

tmr? why?



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

hahha



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

my birthday's over, bud



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

hehe



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

its on the 20th right?



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

19th!



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

oh issit?



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

whoops!



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

i'm sorry!



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

hahah!



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

aww it's alrite



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

it's the thouht that counts!



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

lol... thats so cheesy!!!!!! hahahah



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

but very true



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

!



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

yeah!! amazing how the cheesiest stuff apply to everyday situations so perfectly



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

uhuh. weird... we live cheesy lives...



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

cheesy cheesy cheesy



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

gosh. you hungry?



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

poor dear!



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

hahah



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

yea i always am



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

the turmoils of the tummy of a growing man



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

*nods wisely*



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

yea.. not a good thing



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

oh my. you as bad as melvo?



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

nope... he's worse



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

i eat my greens at least



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

thank god



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

he's a pig man



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

tell me about it



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

amazing!



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

you bet, he's like a cow with 4 stomachs



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

wow. that's very accurate



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

i know



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

i'm good...



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

lol



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

you got a way with words, my boy. *nods appraisingly*



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

thank you. i usual do.



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

hahah



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

modesty is not one of my best traits obviously!



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

I can see that



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

that's why we get along well!



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

*beams*



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

hahaha



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

isnt that just great?



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

yeah man! absolutely marvellous



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

*dances the Timbuktian in joy*



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

*joins in almost immediately!*



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

wow! you're dancing's magic!



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

how DO you do it?!



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

i know, i've been practicing



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

practice makes perfect. again with chessy statements



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

cheesy cheesy!! *sprinkles cheese all over Kishy*



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

I'm proud of you!



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

*dances while cheese rains all over me*



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

i feel like a pizza



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

you do? well I feel like pizza too, now that you've mentioned it!



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

*salivates*



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

yum yum yum yum



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

*echos Kishy* yum yum yum yum!!!



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

*echoes



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

hah



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

so watcha doin now?



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

nothing interesting at all



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

just reading blogs



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

ah...



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

oh, that reminds me, I must publish mine



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

it's waiting!



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

hahah



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

publish it!



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

*trots over to the 'Publish Post' button and jumps on it*



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

yay!



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

I'm every woman, it's all in meeeeeee!!!!!!!!!



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

uhuh... right...



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

stupid shit!



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

yes?



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

hahahha! you sound just like me!!



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

difference is, I say "you rang?'



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

i know... this is dangerous



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

yeah man. you, Sash and I might be triplets



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

oh my! hahahahah



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

the thought never even enttered my lil ol head



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

lil ol head's right



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

hey, twill be so much fun!



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

excuse me! just because we're triplets now, foesnt mean i have YOUR head size



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

*doesnt



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

you are soooo fried



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

*fumes*



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

just the way i like myself!



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

hahah'



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

ok, it's for sure now. we ARE related!



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

long lost sister! is it really you!?



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

yes it is me! and I'm afraid it is you too!



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

*hugs*



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

hugs back*



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

this is a great day indeed hahahaha



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

yep! a reunion of 2 lost, lonely souls!



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

*audience sigh happily*



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

awwwwwwwwwwwww



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

*nods and wipes a tear away*



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

lol



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

didnt you say that you have to leave? not that im chasing you away or anything



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

oh, mom fell asleep



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

*evil laughter*



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

hahaha!



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

but!



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

?



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

(there's always a but isn't there)



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

tired?



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

I gtg soon



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

yea



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

no problem



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

nope, mom's got the habit of getting up suddenly



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

oh my... that is scary



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

ahahah



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

hahahaha!!!



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

I laughed ut loud!!!



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

*out



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

oh no!



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

shit man



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

did she rise?



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

ok, she's still alseep



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

from slumber that is



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

oh man, you made me laugh out more!!!



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

with 'rise'



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

hahaha



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

hahahah youre nuttier than sash



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

oh, you can't be too sure *nods mysteriously*



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

hell, I probably am



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

oooooooooo suspense



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

yeah *wiggles eyebrows*



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

I'm a woman of mystery



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

oh please.



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

idiot!!



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

yes?



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

pass me the salt pls.



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

here you go *little does d know, its actually itching powder*



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

*receives it, and sprinkles it onto a tequila*



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

here you go, long lost bro!!



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

*hands it over with flourish*



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

sets it down on the table*



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

i'm not touching that!



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

why? wat's the matter? *looks alarmed*



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

erm... i... i... well no drinking today lah. i;m laying off a little.



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

really? hmph. ah well, here you go, kitty!



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

*feeds it to the cat*



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

mmm. why's that cat licking the thornbush?



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

what the hell?



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

hahaha!!!



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

lol



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

wow. this convo's so lame



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

uhuh... we're as dumb as du,b can be



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

dumg*



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

**dumb



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

dumg indeed!



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

hahaha



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

oh oh, I'm gonna put it on my blog!!



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

no secrets revealed here, rite?



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

another one... first sash and now you.. lol



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

none whatso ever.



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

hahah!



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

goody then!



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

hey, we gotta spread the lame-osity arnd



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

okie dokie



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

hard work, but someone's gotta do it



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

yea, we're noble to take om such a role



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

*on



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

yep. we're such heroes. *pats self on back, and gives Kishy a pat too*



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

yup. we should be given medals and such. we should be on the papers!



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

front page and all!



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

totally!! and we'll have our own show!!



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

uhuh... that'll be so cool. thouugh detrimental to s'pore and society.



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

haha



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

esp with you in it



°· J's Girl ·° - his s£x kitt£n - says:

omigosh. that's the nicest thing anyone's ever said to lil ol me!



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

hahahah



:.«.•AmNesiA•.».: spinning, in a really good way says:

thats just so sad...

Long time no blog, eh? Well that's partly bcos I've got no mood, and mostly bcos I've got no time. MSN chatting can rob you of blogging time. But I'm kinda free now, so here I am! *beams*



Guess wat? It's 19th December. And that means.....I'm 18!



*extensive somersaulting, watches Kishan gasp*



So many yrs feeling 18, and finally, I am. Happified. :-D



Guess who was the 1st to wish me? Nope, you'll nvr guess. Actually, maybe you wld. Ah heck. It was my ex.



*audience gasp and go "Huh???!"*



I know! I was super surprised to see his name on my phone screen when he called. It was a little before 12. I hesitated, and picked up the phone. He wished me happy birthday, ofcos. Then he passed the phone to Karthi, his best friend, who wished me too, and passed the phone back to him. And we talked a bit, for 5 min or so. As usual, he joked half the time. It felt so weird talking to him after so long. And I still felt so guilty for doing wat I did. I was a bitch and I know it. But at least I didn't stick on with him for fun. Now that'd be revolting. Don't know how ppl do that, really. Hope they plummel into shit and die.



Anyway, yeah. We talked, and I didn't really know wat to say. So the conversation was short, but very pleasant. I thanked him for wishing me, and we hung up. I was a little happy after that. A sort of satisfaction, knowing that he's doing fine. Call it guilt if you want. Cos that's wat I'm calling it too.



When I was getting off the phone with my ex, there was this other line going. I hurriedly picked it up, wondering who it was cos my phone didn't recognise it. The person went , "Haaappy Birrrthdeey." I went, "Huh?" not bcos I didn't understand, but bcos I cldn't place the voice, and the person was obviously not sober. I asked who it was, and he said "Eet's me." Then it hit me. JIJAY!



His voice sounded so different cos he was high! His speech was, ofcos, very slurred, and he was talking in an accent, with no 'lah's and 'ah's. It's not a bluff accent. He grew up mingling with whites, so it's not put on. It seems that he started talking in Singlish only in primary 4!



Mom's screaming. Be back later!



So yeah, he sounded very different, but still sorta like himself, you get? And he sounded so adorable due to the slurredness of speech! He said quite a few things that surprised me to some extent, cos I had no idea in hell wat exactly he thought of me. He got me blushing, really. *blushes again* I was wondering if he'd meant it or not, when he said that he's gonna rmbr wat he'd said the next day cos he's only high, not drunk. And when he's high, he's revealing his innermost feelings, it seems. And today, when I caught him online, he said he's got no hangover. Means, he wasn't drunk.



*floats*



So I talked to Jay for an hour or so (his poor friend got arnd half an hour of it charged to his phone) and it was only then that I got to check the msgs I got. Sorry for replying so late, twinnie! A bit later, Hannibal called and tortured me with stupid qns that I answered thru clenched teeth, before wishing me much later in the convo. Hmph. Stupid arse you, Nantha! Oh, and Venga smsed me at 12 too. Sweet of him to rmbr. :-)



I went to sleep arnd 2am, with Madhu snoring softly by my side. Oh, and she wished me too! She wished me with the rest of my family. They rmbred it was my birthday only at 1am cos they were too busy watching tv. My brother-in-law didn't talk to me at all.



I didn't do much today. I stayed home and read a little. I got scolded alot though. My mom's frown never left her face. She said horrible things to me, worse than any she had said before. I tried my best not to cry. I cldn't take it though, so I left the kitchen, where she was doing the scolding, locked myself in my room and cried my heart out.



I'd nvr have guessed there were so many things in me that she hated. She hates the way I talk, the way I dress, the way I love my friends, the way I love and trust in my relationship with Jay, the way I live, even the way my expression tends to be dreamy most of the time. I've only mentioned a few hated traits. It's a wonder she doesn't hate me. I'm not so sure about that now though.



It's 1.47am now. My birthday's over. I can't say it was fun while it lasted. All I can say is, it's a good thing this day'll happen only once.

Didn't work.



*string of bad words flow*

Hey ho. Diddle dee. Do do.

Hey ho. Diddle dee. Do do.



I'm testing out this title thing.



TESTING.

Meant to blog about the wedding, which went very well, but cldn't. God knows how sick I am of these kids here staring at the comp by my side.



They come at regular intervals to try to decipher wat I'm chatting about. And shine this bloody miniature torchlight into my eyes and ears. And untie my hair and tie it again. My hair's all tangled now! Bah. Their mother, my cousin, comes at regular intervals too, asks me, "What are you doing lah Dhanya!!!", presses herself against my shoulders and stares at the screen.



Best part is, they're staying, leaving day after tmr.



Marvellous!



I shld stop getting so irritated. I shld stop getting so irritated. I shld stop getting so irritated. I shld stop getting so irritated. I shld stop getting so irritated. I shld stop getting so irritated.I shld stop getting so irritated.



They're nice kids, really. At least the boy is. The girl's seriously irritating and spoilt. And their mom...she's ok. Just a little irritating. Basically a good person.



Shit, why the hell am I being so nice? She irritates the SHIT out of me.



I can't wait till all this oh-I'm-staying-over-for-the-wedding ppl go and leave me alone. I cannot stand acting so good and decent. I wanna go out, but I can't! I gotta help arnd the house, be here to bloody attend to their needs.



Mom's screaming now. I need to get out. Argh.

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Went out with Kit to day and I had a great time! But no time to write about it, mom's started growling. Soon, she'll scream.



But! I'm going to be very good and let you guys have some entertainment for a bit. Just a teeny bit.



I get messages on Friendster, and this is one of the message-convos btwn me and this fellow who added me. It's in email format, so the latest reply's the first you read. Confusing? You're probably not very bright then. :-p



Heya!



Good to know you're fine. So am I! So, you gonna keep asking me how I am till we both die?



Dhanya





Yuva wrote:

> im fine here...thanks...

> how r u there...??:):););)

>

> take care...!!

> bye.

> Dhanya wrote:

> > I'm fine, thanks. How are you?

> >

> > Take care too!

> >

> > Yuva wrote:

> > > haloooooooooooo...

> > > how r u??

> > >

> > >

> > >

> > > take care ...

> > > c ya.





*extensive head-shaking*



Maybe I shld ignore such nonsense.

Today was my 3rd sister's Registry of Marriage.



Don't fret, the wedding's not over yet.



In case you guys didn't know, you're attending my 2nd sister's wedding! So yeah, as I was saying, my 3rd sister's ROM was this morning. Had to wake up at 6.45, can you believe that? Inhumane! My eyes were a little swollen due to lack of sleep, and I've got more obvious dark-circles. Bah.



The ROM was held at Singapore Philatiec Museum, which, like J said, is a weird choice, to which I answered, that's my family for you. I wore a blue sari, one with a cream border and gold patterns at the edges. The end result was quite nice really, but the one thing I was unhappy about was my mom's insistence on me tying my sari at my waist, above my belly button. I normally tie it at my hips, and it looks much nicer that way. Gosh I felt like one of those nerds with their pants high up their tummies!



Well yeah, the function went well, and my sister looked VERY nice. She NVR dresses up, and today, she did (ofcos) and she looked marvellous. :-)



Back home, I managed to knock my forehead hard with the end of a bamboo pole. There were clothes still on it, and my mom went, "Eh, don't wet the clothes, ah" There's this small swell in the middle of my forehead now.



On a lighter and much happier note, Taufik WON!!! WOOO!!!



*somersaults*



*yawn*



Sleepy....must...go...*snort*...zzz..z...zzzz.....*snort*...zz..z..zzz..

Almost everyone has fallen in love. For those who haven't love's waiting to happen.



Sometimes, we fail, and there's no going back. But don't let that get you down, as a person. Cos loving someone doesn't mean it's meant to be.



Your fate's in your hands, true. But not when it's got another person's fate involved in it.



So ppl, don't pull yourself down when you don't get to be with the love of your life. Cos that person might not even be the one for you. You'll never find out, until you pick yourself up and carry on.



Be all that you can be as an individual, bring out the best in yourself and shine.



:-)



A friend asked me to write a testimonial for his new Friendster account, which he opened for all heartbroken ppl, one of which he is. I seriously didn't know wat to write, so I wrote this. It's so bull that I decided to paste it here. Also, I've no time to blog. Sigh. I so wanna blog more! :-(



Shit. Mom. Nuff said.

I have to blog now, due to popular demand. Everybody's poking at me from all sides, chanting, "Blog. Blog. Blog. Blog." You know how freaky and terrifying that is?



*shakes like a leaf*



Anyways, a friend requested that I elaborate on the points I wrote in my earlier entry, the one before the last. Here goes!



- Sash and me, our meeting *beams*



Finally, we met!! She's taller. Hmph.



We watched Princess Diaries 2, which was funny, but not very fantastic, as a movie. I enjoyed it loads more cos Sash was there! There was this weird kid running and crawling up and down the aisle. Wat fun!



After that, we ooh-ed and aah-ed over some earrings, which I was to broke to buy then. Now, I'm not broke! The un-broke status is gonna last for an extremely short while. Experience speaks. So, I must go now while it's good. Means: SASH! Come out with me soon!!



After the look-but-no-buy session, we went home, cos Sash's got a curfew.



*audience go "Aww..."*



But wat the hell, I had FUN!! :-D





- Jay *floats*



Not much to say about J, except that, I'm loving him even more, and I'm seriously deprived of him.



*pulls cheeks down in pathetic deprivation*



Again, ppl, don't puke.





- My quitting from my job *groans*

- My probably dickless boss *cackles*



Not worth blogging. He's a dickhead. A fuckhead, even. He refused to believe my dad was hospitalised until I showed him the MC.



Too much words wasted on him. Let's. Move. On.





- A few other itty bitty stuff I want to rant about



My memory fails me. *bangs head on the wall*





Automated voice: Point-form discussion, OVER. Beep.



Now, I shall say some stuff about Sash's party! Not much though. Stupid stupid memory.



I arrived before Kit, Kish or Melvo did, so I was pretty lonely and lost.



Me, and a group of friends: Quiet.

Me, and a group of ppl I don't know: *crickets*



I was frantically smsing Kit to come faster than she already was. So, when she and Kishy were finally on the bus, I excused myself and ran down to the bus stop to meet them.



I love Kit's hair!!



So we went up to Sash's house, to find Melvo and Kay already there.



I love Kay's hair!!



So, we ate, talked, and introduced each other to each other. It was fun! Stupid Kit bumped into me purposely so many times, making me spill my Coke. Hmph.



I can't rmbr much about wat happened later. Well, there were 2 cakes, one for Sash, and one for her friend, which was a surprise to her.



*audience go "Aww..." again*



Alamak. Mom's back and bitching. Gtg. Be back soon!

I'm so sorry ppl. I wanted to blog today, but was busy having a heartfelt chat with J. I'm going to have to blog about Sash's birthday party another time!



I can afford to write some stuff in point-form though. Here goes!



- J cldn't come. :.-(

- Sash looked hot.

- She's not prettier than me. *growls at Sash for insisting otherwise**

- Olinda got voted out of SG Idol. (WOOHOO!!)

- Taufik must win. *stands up and waves pom-poms*

- Kishy's got a funny laugh.

- I love Kit's hair.

- Melvo's stupid.

- Sash's sister's extremely cute! *dies*

- Sash's mom looks way too young! *dies again*





Mom's shouting. Sigh. Be back!



:-)

I wanna blog about so much but no time! Here's a list of things I want to blog about:



- Sash and me, our meeting *beams*

- Jay *floats*

- My quitting from my job *groans*

- My probably dickless boss *cackles*

- A few other itty bitty stuff I want to rant about



So much to blog, so little time!



Oh oh, Sash's party on Friday! Happified! Jay can't come though, I think. Said he's busy. Sigh. *hangs head dejectedly*



Ah well. *wipes snot away on sleeve*

Something extremely freaky just happened. My 2nd brother-in-law just complimented me! Well, he sorta did. I just heard him say it 3 minutes or so ago, to my mom. They were having a convo while the commercials were on.



"Janani's sister actually looks pretty, y'know? She looks like Dhanya."



My jaw hit the floor and I'm sure it'll come back up 3 hrs later. He NEVER compliments me. He normally goes on and on about how my lips are too pouty, how my forehead's all biggish and weird, how my feet are too big, the list goes on. The only nicest thing he's said to me is that I'm the spitting image of my 2nd sister, who's beautiful. I think she's much prettier than me, in a fairer, more indian, wholesome way. It's not like I look like a bad-assed girl, but she's just much more pleasing to look at, especially to the Indian eye. At least that's wat I think.



Anyways, yep, he complimented me and I'm still not over the shock. *jaw shivers on the cold floor*



I seem to be getting loads of compliments latey though. Everyone seems to be complimenting me on the way I look, almost all the time. I went to Eswari's house yesterday, and Hannibal and Daniel came too. I met Hanni first, and once he saw me, he went, "Hey, you look pretty!" Oh oh, and he said my lips looked smaller!! Wooo!!!



*somersaults*



Anyways, yeah, I smsed both Hanni and Daniel that I'd reached home, cos it was pretty late, around midnight. And Hanni complimented me again, saying I looked nice, and Daniel said I really looked beautiful! Oh oh, and he called me the night before, which was Deepavali, and we talked for an hour or so, and he was telling me how pretty I am and all! Gosh these guys really know how to make a girl happy! *blushes, gushes and dies*



I know all of you must be puking, but oh do listen, cos there's more more more!!



*jumps about in ecstacy*



There are like, so many ppl who have told me I look like Aishwarya Rai, Miss World 1994. Seriously, SO MANY. It started in primary 5, with my sister telling me I looked like her upside down. Spastic, I know. But later on, in secondary school, more and more ppl were noticing the resemblance. I've got relatives in Malaysia, Seremban, whom I don't see often. The last time I saw them was just after my O Levels, can you believe that? Well yeah, there's this aunty who fell into the habit of describing me as the 'Aishwarya girl' cos there are way too many names of cousins and aunts to rmbr. And, I've got another aunty in JB who keeps staring at me from time to time and saying I look like 'that girl from Devdas'. There was this guy who worked with me in Escape Theme Park, who told me I looked like Madhuri Dixit, though. Puh-lease. *rolls eyes* She's so different from me! Besides, she's old.



Oh and back to wat I was saying, when I get introduced to ppl, relatives and friends alike, I often get the "Oh hey, you look like Aishwarya Rai, y'know?" line. This is like, happifying! I got to admit, she does look marvellous, though it's mostly due to the 9 layers of make-up. Seen pictures of her without make-up, ppl? She looks VERY ordinary. And with the make up piled on, she's suddenly got a good bone structure, cheekbones and all! And she acts so smart-assed during interviews, using bombastic words and raised eyebrows, but if you listen carefully to wat she's saying, it doesn't make much sense, or anything interesting to listen to. Ok, enough bitch-talk.



I just read thru wat I've written so far. God I sound so bimbotic and vain! Oh well. Can't hide from my true self, can I?



Oh shit. I've gtg.



I've spent so much time writing shit when I was actually supposed to write about Sash and me. We met today!!! We watched Princess Diaries, and I totally enjoyed the time I spent with her! Sash Jolie Banderas, we are so going to have to go out soon! Earrings, girl! WOOOO!!!



God. Gtg. Nite!

GUESS WAT?!



I'M BLOODY MENSTRUATING!!! Pun fully intended!



I see red! Red here, red there, red absolutely everywhere!



WOO BLOODY HOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



*SOMERSAULTS LIKE HELL*

You put me down, provoke me with your words, say bad things about me to others. Still, you think you own me.



You try to control me by taking away privileges. You want me to wear a pottu all the time but I don't want to, so your stuff are off-limits to me until I 'come to my senses'. As if I give a flying fuck about your stuff. I've got my own. Know why? I'm old enough. I'm independent enough. I don't need you nor your help to get wat I want. In case you change your mind about wat you said, don't, cos you don't have to finance my studies, no thank you. I'll find my way.



I've got better things to be than your last sister, the bimbo who's got her looks and nails on her mind the whole time. There's so much to me you know shit about, and you'll never know, cos in your mind, the image is stuck, that I'm perpetually the pretty little airhead who's useful only when you need favours. Otherwise her presence is a waste to the family.



I don't care if you don't know me. Just leave me alone and get on with your own life. I'm sick of being hurt, sick of thinking about the things you said, sick of you making me cry in front of strangers. I'd love to make you feel my pain, just so you'd stop inflicting it on me.



I used to want to be just like you. You used to be so nice to me and I felt so lucky to have the most beautiful girl in the world for a big sister. That's all before I became 'this bad', yeah? Well, 'this bad' is how I'm going to be. I'm not going to change myself, become more indianised, or not have a boyfriend just for you. I don't want to be like you, not ever. I'm happy being me, and don't you dare try to change that. Accept the fact that I've grown up. I'm not willing to be your idea of a little sister.



I do love you, and I know you love me. But I don't like you much. I'm trying my best to fight the hate I feel for you.

I don't know wat hairstyle to wear at my sister's wedding. Oh, I didn't tell you guys about my sari!! How cld I have forgotten?!!



*slaps self*



Anyway, it's mainly off-white, and orange at the ends, with silver patterns. It's a beautiful sari and the colours suit my complexion! Gosh I love it love it love it!



*somersaults 23 times*



I gotta be on a lookout for matching jewellery. It's gonna be shopping shopping and shopping from now on. Oh YEAH!!!



*does a little dance*



The hairstyle's the problem though. I don't know wat to do. Tie up, let go, natural curls, get it straightened for the day, I got absolutely no idea. My mom wants to use hair extensions on me. No way! Someone elses' hair!



*pukes*



Shitty. Gtg. Nite!