Thank you for the background, my Sashiness!!!!!!!!

*does 23 somersaults*

And the party's going ahead well and good!!!!

*does 2,300 somersaults*

Oh, it's kinda final, I'm starting the course late September.

I shld have done it sooner, and I feel stupid saying this again, but I really shld have done it sooner.

But, like Kay said, there must be a reason why my studies were put off for so long, besides the lack of money; a reason for the lack of money, besides my family's(and my) financial situation; a reason for the financial situation, besides lack of planning. Actually, there can be no reason besides lack of planning. The planning sucked. Cos there was no plan. Oh well. As I was saying(initially), there must be some other reason that I cldn'tdidn'twldn't study till now. Like, it's all part of a plan, some sort of work of fate. Yeah I'm still wondering what the big plan is. Or small plan.

Will I really have a career that's related to what I'm studying? How abt the other stuff I wanna do before I grow too old to try. Will I do those, or will I just end up being boring and in other words, bored, and just die that way?

Oh well.

I'll be 21 soon. I'm officially not a young punk anymore. Must stop fooling arnd.

Doesn't that suck?

I suuuuurrrre hope we can work something out.

We're turning 21 together, ppl! Shldn't we celebrate together too? It's not a need, and is not meant to be proof as to how close we are, but it'll be special.

So, I really hope we manage to do it. Together. All 3 of us.

If we don't, though, we'll have to come up with something really really really mini for ourselves, just 3 of us also can. No 2 ways abt this; no arguements, no differences allowed.

:)

It's monday. Yet. Friggin. Again.

*dies*

Can't wait till I'm employed with a job that I actually look forward to. The day, will come for sure. But it's probably gonna take real long.

Oh well! Btr try catch some sleep before monday proper starts.

Toodles. :)

P.S: I got new glasses on account of my old ones getting lost on my way home couple of weeks back. Got nerdy ones! I look like a nerd and I quite like it. Like it so much, I wanna show you a pic of me in it tho it's disgustingly unclear.



P.P.S: I can't seem to tag on my own tagboard. Again. Mondays suck.

Wah knn, I slept for 12 hours straight ah!

Was online last night when Jay called from Batam. So, wanting to devote my entire attention to him, I peeled myself away from the comp and spread myself out on the floor. After the convo, promptly fell asleep. The mom found me snoring on the floor in a foetal position and sighed really loudly, which woke me up, and seeing that my comp was still on, I just switched the main power switch off and dragged myself to bed. That was at 12.30am and I awoke at 12.15pm today! Marvellousness, I tell you! I feel soooo fresh, and that's why I've chosen to blog since I'm not going out.

Also Sashi says she'll go on a killing spree if I don't get blogging soon but aaaanyways...

Yesterday was a pretty interesting day, in the sense that I met new ppl. But I wasn't supposed to at all.

See, work finished at 1, and I was supposed to meet Beeer at orchard at 1.30 pm but upon calling her at 12.30, I found she had some sorta change in plans and that she'll only be able to see me in pasir ris at in the evening. I don't mind changes at all, but her change in plans included the time, the place, the activity, and the company. So I was like okaaaay and decided to just go along with it cos I had no other plans anyways.

I knew I had a few hours to kill till evening tho, and was whiling my time away at the office, chattin and waiting for it to strike one when Krishna(the guy from the office behind) asked if I'd like to have a drink, since I've got the time.
We were supposed to have coffee a few weeks ago but it got cancelled due to me, so I said ok. Besides, I was glad I had something to do besides sleep in the toilet or window shop and end up spending.

AIYAH I AM SO BROKE Y'KNOW!! SO DEPRESSING!! IT'S ONLY THE 8TH OF THE MONTH!!!

Oh well.

Coffeebean was full, so we had some bubble tea at this small chinese shop, and I left arnd 3.

And then, I made my way to the Cheers joint at Downtown East where Beeer was waiting for me. Got a Jim Beam Cola (I. Love. It. Btr than the other versions) which she felt obliged to pay for cos she just got her tuition cash and went over to the beach where her friends were sitting arnd. Nice bunch of ppl! Hilarious too. They even had this weird point system going on so everybody kept getting 10 points added, or 100 taken away or 1000 added and whatnot. They're all as cuckoo as Beeer, which means they're as cuckoo as me, so I like them. Teehee.

Oh oh oh oh oh oh ohh oh. Pasir ris beach area got small small shops where the toilets are, right? We were at one of them, and I was paying for one of those bubble-blowing containers for the babies back at home when the shopkeeper, a chinese man, told me this; "You're very pretty for an Indian."

....

I was stunned for a few seconds. Then I said, "But Indian girls are pretty what!"

He replied, "But you pretty lah."

God.

I was, and still am, more insulted than complimented. I'm not being racist or mean saying this, but seriously, Indians have the best features. Indians, and Europeans, who often look Indian themselves, have the best features. How the heck can one be pretty for an Indian? Noone is too pretty to be Indian. Ignorant arsewipe.

Aaaanyways. Coming saturday, Beeer and I are going to the zoo. Care to join us? All are welcome, as long as you don't plan to wear neon colours. We don't wanna be attractions to the animals, instead of it being the other way round.

Time to do sit-ups. Tooodles!

I've not blogged for almost a month! I shld.

But this will not be a proper entry. Know why?

Cos it ends here. Tmr! :-D

It's 2.24am on a Tuesday morning and there're abt 4 and half hours left for the automatic alarm to ring. And am I spending them wisely? Nooooooo. But I don't do wisdom very well, so I shall excuse myself for a bit.

Y'know, I abhor getting my bills. When I'm in a good mood, I say that bills are to be thankful for cos they mean you've got a roof over your head, eat well, can afford to have a personal line, internet connection, etc etc. And in a crappy half-sleepy mood like this, it's like a huge cheebytic matter, even tho I adore internet banking facilities.

Money comes, money goes. But why the hell does it seem to be departing a lot more than arriving?

Currencies suck.

But I want money. Pls come to me? And bring your relatives with you. :)

Wah, I just typed my password out without looking at the keyboard! Not bad at all.

I'm jogging on saturday with the Kabbyness. I know, I'm still struggling to digest the fact that I, Dhanya Nair, will be jogging. At bedok reservoir too. The only place I've ever jogged/ran besides home(I go round and round and round like the Sugababes) is school, and that's cos I was forced to. In actual fact, I like running; it's just that after a few minutes of it, it starts seeming like a bad idea and I'd badly want to get a taxi home. Kabby'll probably be hours ahead of me cos she's got amazonian legs like my mom. You know, there's a lot of good genes that I didn't receive from that woman. Only got the teeth that jut out, a smile that's too big, the mickey mouse hairline, hair texture(which is actually not so bad) and good nails. Oh well.

Melinda's out! I hate American Idol. From now, I officially do, and I'm boycotting the show.

Ah, celery goes frikkin well with nutella.

There's this asshole who's been trying for yrs to get back with a good friend of mine, thru me. Keeps asking to talk to her and to be given one more chance. She, ofcos, doesn't want to; she's sorta engaged to somebody else, and besides, she hates this fellow. And he knows she's engaged and that she hates him.

Asswipe used to call me everyday to make small talk and beg (and to action abt how bloody rich he is) and later, it got to once every few days, then weeks, and now emails or messages me on Friendster once every few months to again, beg.

Here's the latest installment via email:

Hi Dhanya.I won't beat around the bush. XXX gave me 5 chances but i blew it.She waited for 7 months to win my heart over but now tell i've been waiting and will wait for the day she trusts me that i truely love her.I've been waiting for three years and i will continue to do so unless she's in love with someone else whereby i give her my blessings.She gave me so many chances when i didn't know the meaning of love and when i did understand she's not giving me a chance.

A.R ABDEEN


I'm so frikkin sick of this, and I've not been very mean(kill me), till now.


You mistake me for someone who gives a flying fuck. You can be dead for all I care. Since that's not immediately possible, just make sure that I don't hear from you again.


Dhanya

I hope to god that it stops him. If this doesn't, I swear I'm gonna hunt him down and stuff a broken bottle into his eye socket.

I'm blogging from work!

Yep.

So.

Toodles!!

Turn it inside out so I can see
The part of you that's drifting over me
And when I wake you're, you're never there
But when I sleep you're, you're everywhere
You're everywhere

Just tell me how I got this far
Just tell me why you're here and who you are
'Cause every time I look
You're never there
And every time I sleep
You're always there

'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know
That makes me believe
I'm not alone
I'm not alone

I recognize the way you make me feel
It's hard to think that
You might not be real
I sense it now, the water's getting deep
I try to wash the pain away from me
Away from me

'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know
That makes me believe
I'm not alone
I'm not alone

I am not alone
Whoa, oh, oooh, oh

And when I touch your hand
It's then I understand
The beauty that's within
It's now that we begin
You always light my way
I hope there never comes a day
No matter where I go
I always feel you so

'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know
That makes me believe
I'm not alone
'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I catch my breath
It's you I breathe
You're everything I know
That makes me believe
I'm not alone

You're in everyone I see
So tell me
Do you see me?


Everywhere by Michelle Branch

I really, really, really need shoes.

I am amazed. I am not 'actioning', but a little over 700 ppl have viewed my Friendster profile from the April Fool's Day till now. Might be standard stuff for some, but this is a new record/madness to me. Proof!



Yet another screen shot. Wahaha. Anyways, crazy innit.

We all know that I, like every other girl with a Friendster account probably does, get weird/stupid msges. I just got this one that's icky and very to the point; "hi there... wanna have sex?"

Ewwwwyuck.

Oh oh, 2 interviews tmr, one courtesy of Kay, and another courtesy of Beeer. Wish me luck.

Nights and toodles!

P.S: I don't know what to wear! Damn do I need shoes.

Was out in town with Sindhu, Suchita and Sha wednesday night.

Mmm.. just realised; I'm the only one whose name doesn't start with an S!

Well aaanyways, I had fun and by the looks of it, we all did. With the slight exception of Sha tho. She had a bad day at work and she's ovulating and all so we sorta caught her in a cranky mood. After eating, she was as good as new tho! *sniggers*

Oh oh oh, we ate at The Manhattan Fish Market at Plaza Singapura, and I had the most gorgeous dish; Manhattan Flamed Prawns. The prawns were flamed right in front of my eyes (not literally), with a thick layer of creamy sauce covering them. And the butter rice was very tasty too. $16.90(excl. GST) but every cent was worth it. So much so that next time I go there, I might have the same thing.

After our seafood meal, our tummies were screaming in agony, but we headed over to TCC for dessert anyways. Sindhu and I shared a tiramisu, and the rest had a Dark Devotion each. Tis a good thing there weren't any guys with us cos if there were, the orgasmic, soulful groans that were let out wldn't have done them any good.

Before bingeing tho, we were at Orchard, and managed to get some neoprints taken! After so long. :-D Sha didn't join in tho, so it was just the sisters and me. Pic time!




This's the one I like the best!




Both of them look so sweet here, and I've got an evil smile on.




This one's not bad lah.



Honestly, I'm not in much of a blogging mood. I think it shows. My post's been as bland as Sanjaya's singing(according to Randy and Paula, if I'm not wrong), except for the pics, ofcos.

So I shall leave with the presentation(with a pretty yucky image of me) of this thingie I got via myheritage.com. It's a program that matches your features to celebrities. Highly interesting. If you're bored outta your skull, it's an amusing way to pass time.

Well, toodles then!

http://www.myheritage.com

You know that feeling you get when you're rocking your chair, go back a bit too far but catch yourself just in time before you fall?

That's how I feel when you kiss me.

You know how sometimes you crave for chocolates for days but have no time or money to get some? And one day you come home wanting only to go to bed, when you find a pack of Cadbury's on the table? The joy, the genuineness of your smile?

That's how I am every single time I see you.

You know how when a song you like comes on the radio, and you drop whatever you're doing, close your eyes and listen to it? And when it's over you get busy again but still wonder when they'll play it again? Cos that one time wasn't enough?

That's but a small fragment of how much I miss you when we part.

You know the feeling you get when you've been hearing about disasters and evil doings of man all week; that the world is a bad place to live in? Then somebody in your train gives up his seat for a pregnant woman and you think maybe we aren't so bad afterall?

That's how I feel when I hear your thoughts.

You're my exhiliration; my chocolate fix; my favourite song; my hope.

You know how when you're watching the horizon, you know that no matter how much you go towards them, the sea and sky will never separate? And that they will always be that way no matter how many years you live on; kissing each other?

That's you and I.

I'm 2.5 hrs into Friday the 13th! Hope it rains in the evening or later, to bring abt a Freddy-ish mood. Or maybe, the usual howls by the teens who're always hanging arnd under my block shld suffice.

Am up late! Cos, not working tmr! In fact, not working, period. Msg me if you're curious. By the way, I did not get fired.

The walls in my room are white. I've got built-in cupboards that take up an entire wall, and they're white too. My red metal double-decker for 3 takes up a wall and half and another wall is filled by my wooden-framed full-length mirror, brown chest of drawers, and short cabinet stack which is surprise surprise, brown too.

Can you say boring? I sure can.

I'd love to paint my cupboards first, but that'd require a whole set of new colours, which I can't afford right now since I'm living off whatever savings(if they can be called that) I got for the next few weeks. We do have an un-used can of dusty orange wall paint lying arnd that was supposed to be used to sponge a wall in the living room tho. I nvr got arnd to doing it cos I got too tired applying the base coat. Teehee.

So! I'll be doing 2 or 3 of my walls, and will leave out the one my cupboards are built on cos 99.9% of the wall's covered anyway. And, my door's a clean white, which will look real pretty against the dusty orange. Yay me! Too bad I can't do much to my chest of drawers cos they're plastic-coated. Oh, the mirror's gonna be painted too, to compliment the cupboards! And once it's all done, I'll take pictures and show my room off to you suckers!

*laughs evilly into the night*

Anyways, the whole point of going into such embellishments, will be revealed in the next paragraph.

Paintin' party, anyone?

If I were to die tomorrow, what mistakes would you think I have made?

What are the flaws you would find in me? Would you think I might have been alive had they not existed?

Would you think it would have been better if I hadn't existed, at all?

When you don't got it, you don't know what you're missing.

Where would you be now, if I never were?

Where would I be now, if you never were?

Just 20 years on earth. Are they of any significance?

It must be easier to not have existed at all. I guess I wouldn't be able to appreciate the simplicity/complexity of it all without having existed in the first place.

What am I here for?

What's your plan?

Emotions; responsibilities; bad situations; dire consequences. We made the world this way. We've established our general unhappiness.

The world should have been kept simple.

Tis the 31st of March.

Everything is soooo blah lah. It's just been a month working at the bank but I'm bored of the job already. Surprise surprise, I'm beginning to wonder how long I'll last. It's a 1-yr contract, but it's sorta auto-renewed. Unless you got disciplinary/behavioural problems lah, none of which I possess, ofcos. And the contract is such that, after the first 3 months, I can leave if I like; as long as I give a month's notice.

But I don't wanna go looking for another job! Bleurgh.

Also, if I stay on, this job will be a good add-on for my resume. I'm learning new things everyday, which is good. Too bad the stuff I learn don't interest me one bit.

Which asshole came up with the whole concept of banking anyway? I'd like to stuff a few demand drafts up his bony arse.

Now, happier stuff.

I'm out today! The Jayster will be expecting me in town at like, 5. Which means I'll be there at 6. *winks evilly* We'll hang arnd till we meet Babu and Nan later on, and maybe, we'll be going over to Devil's Bar. I was initially against the idea cos altho I just got my pay, and I can afford to club a very teeeny bit, I don't like the idea of spending all the extra cash I have. What if I had a shoe emergency? Or worse, a nail emergency and I HAD to get it fixed right away? But guess what? Devil's Bar's got no cover charge. I sooooo do not mind now.

Oh, I paid my (multiple and never-ending) bills via DBS iBanking. I love the tiny device, and absolutely adore pressing the soft red button to see a new pin appear everytime I do! I am so smart too, as at the end of every transaction, I take a screen shot of it for the transaction reference number. *taps self on back*

I feel soooo cool!

*shakes to that 'I'm too sexy' song*

What shall I wear?

I had the worst night of sleep in ages yesterday.

Wld you believe, I actually woke at like, 4am, to inform my mom that we gotta fill up a form. Don't ask me what form, i have nooooooo idea in hell. And I vaguely rmbr doing it. I tapped her on her arm and told her pretty gravely that the form needs filling up. And she sleepily went 'What?' Hahaha.

It's not even 12 yet, but I think I shall turn in. Gosh. How am I gonna cope with part-time studies?

Where there's a will, there's a way.

But, is the will there?

Oh well.

My thumb nail chipped horribly. :(

I was tugging at my belt yesterday morning and somehow, in my hurry, I managed to bend my nail a wee bit too much. It hurt. *sniff* Was so sad the whole morning.

Listen to me. Ppl are starving all over the world, women and children are getting molested, relatives are dying; and I'm sobbing over my chipped nail.

Well aaanyways!

Fixed it today with shitloads of coats of nail enamel, and 2 hard, patiently applied layers of brown polish, AND a sealing coat of clear varnish. Decided to go all out and do a pattern too! Here:

Before




That's actually some cover-up stationery. It wasn't sticky enough, so I held in together with scotch tape.

After



The scary angle.



Under white light.



Now have a closer yet blurry look.

Quite happy with it. :-D

I suppose I shld blog.

I just took my very first screen shot! Makes me sound extremely backdated and call me stupid if you like(don't you dare) but I am soooo proud of myself. I figured it out with no help! So what if the keyboard has a button which says 'Prt Scr'? It still takes brains to figure it out, ok?

Hmph.

Ah, here's my masterpiece!





Beautiful, ain't it! :-D