J just smsed me saying he's back!! YAY!!! YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYY!!!!!
*SOMERSAULTS!!!*
Monday, September 6, 2004
J's coming back today!!!
WOOHOO, man! I'm so happified! =D
And a little worried.
It's gonna be 3pm now and still no word. Hmph. I don't know what time he was supposed to be back. Hope he's not back at midnight! I'll be a bundle of nerves by then, man. Ah well...just gotta wait. And wait. And wait. And wait.
Bleah.
WOOHOO, man! I'm so happified! =D
And a little worried.
It's gonna be 3pm now and still no word. Hmph. I don't know what time he was supposed to be back. Hope he's not back at midnight! I'll be a bundle of nerves by then, man. Ah well...just gotta wait. And wait. And wait. And wait.
Bleah.
Looks like I can't say some stuff about the way I feel about my ex without some immediate adverse response.
Excuses excuses.
Mr.Ex, I know you were immature at that point of time, you didn't mean it as a test, yadda yadda. It was a test, no matter what you say. Test of my loyalty to you. I never said you meant bad, anyway. "A conscious or unconscious one (the test), I don't know." Get this?
I was never hurt by it, I was just marvelling at how you searched for trouble. Just think about it. What if I actually went ahead and met Sanjay? Wld you spring forth and say, "Yo! I'm Sanjay afterall! Now aren't I smart?" I doubt it. You'd have been devastated and crying or something. And you definitely wldn't be telling me you meant it as a joke.
It was a half-assed joke in the first place.
And about me meeting a person I saw online (for all of you who have no idea wat's happening, that's J), yes, I'm happy you 'let me' go. Thank you very much. But rmbr how much I had to say to make you feel comfortable with it? I even had to say he didn't look good, which was totally untrue by the way. I had to say so much to meet a good friend for coffee. I know no matter wat you told me about trusting me and not trusting the guys I'm out with, the actual fact was, there wasn't full trust in me. Don't deny it, pls. It'd be fruitless to.
I don't know why I didn't love you in the end. I'm so sorry I hurt you. But if you want to think through things and analyse them, sure, go ahead at the expense of your own peace of mind. I wasn't in love with J when I broke up with you. Again, you want to think otherwise, be my guest. As far as I'm concerned, it's useless cos it's not going to change anything anyway.
Oh, and by the way, don't tell your next gf that you like Kiran's boobs and that you've got a sexy poster of her you like looking at. It made me sick, really. Come to think of it, it still makes me sick to think you cld actually tell me that. That's a sort of insensitivity you can't afford to have.
G'luck, bud.
Excuses excuses.
Mr.Ex, I know you were immature at that point of time, you didn't mean it as a test, yadda yadda. It was a test, no matter what you say. Test of my loyalty to you. I never said you meant bad, anyway. "A conscious or unconscious one (the test), I don't know." Get this?
I was never hurt by it, I was just marvelling at how you searched for trouble. Just think about it. What if I actually went ahead and met Sanjay? Wld you spring forth and say, "Yo! I'm Sanjay afterall! Now aren't I smart?" I doubt it. You'd have been devastated and crying or something. And you definitely wldn't be telling me you meant it as a joke.
It was a half-assed joke in the first place.
And about me meeting a person I saw online (for all of you who have no idea wat's happening, that's J), yes, I'm happy you 'let me' go. Thank you very much. But rmbr how much I had to say to make you feel comfortable with it? I even had to say he didn't look good, which was totally untrue by the way. I had to say so much to meet a good friend for coffee. I know no matter wat you told me about trusting me and not trusting the guys I'm out with, the actual fact was, there wasn't full trust in me. Don't deny it, pls. It'd be fruitless to.
I don't know why I didn't love you in the end. I'm so sorry I hurt you. But if you want to think through things and analyse them, sure, go ahead at the expense of your own peace of mind. I wasn't in love with J when I broke up with you. Again, you want to think otherwise, be my guest. As far as I'm concerned, it's useless cos it's not going to change anything anyway.
Oh, and by the way, don't tell your next gf that you like Kiran's boobs and that you've got a sexy poster of her you like looking at. It made me sick, really. Come to think of it, it still makes me sick to think you cld actually tell me that. That's a sort of insensitivity you can't afford to have.
G'luck, bud.
Saturday, September 4, 2004
I was watching this movie earlier. This woman was suspicious of her husband and kept following him around, keeping an eye on him, watching his behaviour. Creepy, man. Reminded me of something my ex did. Wat he did wasn't as bad as that, but still it bothered me, so it counts. Or counted.
2 to 4 months into our relationship, I got an email from this guy called Sanjay. The mail went something like, "I saw you at Whitesands...you were wearing a white t-shirt and specs rite....I want to make friends with you...I asked a friend of yours for your mail add, please don't ask me who, he'll kill me...I'd be happy if you replied..," stuff like that. I was freaked that someone saw me in my glasses and actually liked me. I replied, saying I was attached and apologised. I received another mail from him, saying my bf was lucky, and who might that lucky guy be and all that. I can't rmbr if I replied to that. It was 2 years ago. Sanjay went out of my mind as quickly as he came.
I told this to my ex, cos he kept stressing the need to keep nothing from each other. I was never a fan of that, actually. How can you tell your boyfriend absolutely everything that happens? There's just no time for that. And some things wld be better not told, like how there was this guy who kept looking down your t-shirt or was brushing his ass against yours in the train, or how this fellow kept eyeing you from top to bottom, top to bottom, countless times, all the while sitting next to you. The freakiest one was this caucasian who was standing close to me in the train, right in front of me, almost right in my face, staring into my eyes. He just kept staring and staring. Ofcos I wasn't staring back but it still was bad. It took all of my self-restraint keeping my fingernails out of his stupid blue-green eyes.
Back to wat I was saying. So my ex didn't show much reaction. He just asked me who I thought it might be and all that.
A good 5 months or so after Sanjay's email, my ex tells me he's been playing a joke on me all the while. It seems, Sanjay is none other than *gasp* my ex.
I found it sort of funny and laughed. I react very well to jokes played on me. Heh. But a bit later, I didn't find it funny anymore. Wat if I had told 'Sanjay' I was unattached and wld love to meet up with him? Wld that be a joke anymore? Nope, that wld have been bad of me, and I wld be untrustable, and he wld have been hurt. The fact that I didn't respond to 'Sanjay's advances made it a joke. If I had, that'd be a catastrophe. Whatever it is, it was undoubtedly a test. A conscious or unconscious one, I don't know. A test diguised as a joke. Now, when I think about it, I'm disgusted.
I'd never 'test' my bf or husband like that, never. Unless I really need to know if he's screwing around, ofcos.
Ah well.
I'm very hungry. I want to eat.
*tummy rumbles*
I shall go.
P.S: I MISS YOU J! MISSmissMISSmissMISSmiss YOU!
2 to 4 months into our relationship, I got an email from this guy called Sanjay. The mail went something like, "I saw you at Whitesands...you were wearing a white t-shirt and specs rite....I want to make friends with you...I asked a friend of yours for your mail add, please don't ask me who, he'll kill me...I'd be happy if you replied..," stuff like that. I was freaked that someone saw me in my glasses and actually liked me. I replied, saying I was attached and apologised. I received another mail from him, saying my bf was lucky, and who might that lucky guy be and all that. I can't rmbr if I replied to that. It was 2 years ago. Sanjay went out of my mind as quickly as he came.
I told this to my ex, cos he kept stressing the need to keep nothing from each other. I was never a fan of that, actually. How can you tell your boyfriend absolutely everything that happens? There's just no time for that. And some things wld be better not told, like how there was this guy who kept looking down your t-shirt or was brushing his ass against yours in the train, or how this fellow kept eyeing you from top to bottom, top to bottom, countless times, all the while sitting next to you. The freakiest one was this caucasian who was standing close to me in the train, right in front of me, almost right in my face, staring into my eyes. He just kept staring and staring. Ofcos I wasn't staring back but it still was bad. It took all of my self-restraint keeping my fingernails out of his stupid blue-green eyes.
Back to wat I was saying. So my ex didn't show much reaction. He just asked me who I thought it might be and all that.
A good 5 months or so after Sanjay's email, my ex tells me he's been playing a joke on me all the while. It seems, Sanjay is none other than *gasp* my ex.
I found it sort of funny and laughed. I react very well to jokes played on me. Heh. But a bit later, I didn't find it funny anymore. Wat if I had told 'Sanjay' I was unattached and wld love to meet up with him? Wld that be a joke anymore? Nope, that wld have been bad of me, and I wld be untrustable, and he wld have been hurt. The fact that I didn't respond to 'Sanjay's advances made it a joke. If I had, that'd be a catastrophe. Whatever it is, it was undoubtedly a test. A conscious or unconscious one, I don't know. A test diguised as a joke. Now, when I think about it, I'm disgusted.
I'd never 'test' my bf or husband like that, never. Unless I really need to know if he's screwing around, ofcos.
Ah well.
I'm very hungry. I want to eat.
*tummy rumbles*
I shall go.
P.S: I MISS YOU J! MISSmissMISSmissMISSmiss YOU!
Friday, September 3, 2004
J's gone.
My beloved J.
*sob*
He's left me all alone in lonely, frightening Singapore for sunny sunny Bintan.
It's just 4 days; he left this afternoon and'll be back on Monday. But that doesn't make it any eaa -*sniff*- asierrrr!
Bwoohooohooooooo!!!
No smses, no msn chatting, no phone convos. Nothing! *SOB* Just a possible call which will definitely be too short for words.
=(
I'm going to be lying flat on my stomach in the middle of the house and staring at the windowpanes, willing time to stop crawling and fly. I'm going to gather all the Oreos I can find and stuff them into my mouth and chew, and chew, and chew. And, I'll be playing with my nose stud, trying to make the hole bigger so that maybe, just maybe, I can stick a bamboo pole in. The hole wld end up being bigger than my nose though. Problem.
Sigh.
My beloved J.
*sob*
He's left me all alone in lonely, frightening Singapore for sunny sunny Bintan.
It's just 4 days; he left this afternoon and'll be back on Monday. But that doesn't make it any eaa -*sniff*- asierrrr!
Bwoohooohooooooo!!!
No smses, no msn chatting, no phone convos. Nothing! *SOB* Just a possible call which will definitely be too short for words.
=(
I'm going to be lying flat on my stomach in the middle of the house and staring at the windowpanes, willing time to stop crawling and fly. I'm going to gather all the Oreos I can find and stuff them into my mouth and chew, and chew, and chew. And, I'll be playing with my nose stud, trying to make the hole bigger so that maybe, just maybe, I can stick a bamboo pole in. The hole wld end up being bigger than my nose though. Problem.
Sigh.
Thursday, September 2, 2004
I'm sick of tip-toeing around my mom, trying my best not to offend her. Whether I go out or not, get to surf the net or not, get to read in peace or not, all depends on her mood. And most of the time, it's not very good. One word:
MENOPAUSE.
*clap of thunder, pees in pants*
When I'm menopausal, I'm going to make sure I drive my kids mad. And I'm going to use menopause as an excuse and be seriously pampered. Chocolates, daisies, truffes, you name it. Even a milk bath, with roses floating around my then-surely-sagging boobs. It's going to be marvellous! *dreams*
I won't bully my husband though. I'll get some special treatment for him too, claiming that him being happy makes me happy. Muahhaha! *evil laughter*
But that's all later, I must endure my mom now. =( Oh well...least I can do, considering how much shit she went through for me (ie: giving birth, bringing up, etc.).
BLEARGH!
MENOPAUSE.
*clap of thunder, pees in pants*
When I'm menopausal, I'm going to make sure I drive my kids mad. And I'm going to use menopause as an excuse and be seriously pampered. Chocolates, daisies, truffes, you name it. Even a milk bath, with roses floating around my then-surely-sagging boobs. It's going to be marvellous! *dreams*
I won't bully my husband though. I'll get some special treatment for him too, claiming that him being happy makes me happy. Muahhaha! *evil laughter*
But that's all later, I must endure my mom now. =( Oh well...least I can do, considering how much shit she went through for me (ie: giving birth, bringing up, etc.).
BLEARGH!
Tuesday, August 31, 2004
Turns out my earlier post was actually the 100th. Blogger's server was too slow, it didn't add an ealier post to the number of posts published, so I kept thinking it was just 99 posts so far. Blaaady hell ah!
Actually, I'm overreacting. I don't really mind. Don't like the idea of changing what I've already written cos it seems unethical to me. *sniggers*
So Happy 101st Blog Post to me!!!!
Actually, I'm overreacting. I don't really mind. Don't like the idea of changing what I've already written cos it seems unethical to me. *sniggers*
So Happy 101st Blog Post to me!!!!
Monday, August 30, 2004
Guess what? You'll never guess!!!
La di da.....
Wanna know wanna know wanna know?
This is my 99th post!
Bloody fantastic, ah?!!
Not to mention amazing! I'm not a faithful blogger, really. I blog whenever I feel like it. I've been having this blog for...about....9 months, I think. By right, I shld have reached the 100th post along time ago.
But who cares cos it's here now!!
YAY!!!!
*does a somersault in the air* (I wish)
La di da.....
Wanna know wanna know wanna know?
This is my 99th post!
Bloody fantastic, ah?!!
Not to mention amazing! I'm not a faithful blogger, really. I blog whenever I feel like it. I've been having this blog for...about....9 months, I think. By right, I shld have reached the 100th post along time ago.
But who cares cos it's here now!!
YAY!!!!
*does a somersault in the air* (I wish)
Previous post, Char wanted to see if I cld blog or not cos she just cldn't manage to. But I cld, so HAHAHAHA, Char! :-p
I watched the musical Friday night. Quite nice actually! There was food but I didn't take any. Pls don't beat me up, Mel. I know you love free food. Muahahahah! Turns out we got complimentary tickets. J and I didn't know first, so he was very surprised to see all the food waiting to be gobbled up. More like unsettled. So when he got the tickets from Eswari, examined them and saw COMPLIMENTARY stamped on it, it was like a Sherlock Holmes moment. Ha!
Before all that, J and I went up to McDonalds cos I wanted to buy a drink. I bought ice lemon tea and we were walking out of the cafetaria when I spotted my ex. I looked away, panicking, uncertain as to whether I shld acknowledge him or not. I told J wat I saw and we looked over at the ex and his friends. He had a weird expression on his face, somewhere between pained and disgusted or something. I smiled guiltily and gave a little wave. It was absolutely horrible.
I wish someone told me there was free food, so that I wldn't have seen the need to go to McDonalds. $1.35 wasted too! Hmph. Hannibal finished it for me though, so it's not that bad, I guess. Still, I saw my ex. Urgh....
*covers face*
Anyway, back to the musical. It's a musical journey through time thingie. Lotsa of dancing, LOTS. And singing, and old hits. An Elvis Presley came on, the one that goes 'Wise men say, only fools rush in. But I can't help falling in looooooove with you'. Know that one? Well, J was singing it to me. =D
DON'T PUKE!
I was so so shy, I just didn't know what to do. I looked elsewhere, biting my lip, wishing he'd stop, while wishing he wldn't. Talk about split personalities. Heh!
So we watched the rest of the show, which as I mentioned, was nice. Except for the bitch though. Rashida. She made my ears bleed.
The show was over, my hair was untidy and my lipstick was probably non-existent. That's when J brought me over to his cousin, who was helping with the show, to introduce me to him. I wish I had a mirror man! Anyway, his cousin seemed sort of nervous or tensed or something. Think he had alot on his mind.
J drove the 6 of us, which includes himself, to this Ang Mo Kio neighbourhood eating place. The other 5 were Hannibal, Eswari, Daniel, Veni, and me ofcos! Everyone just had a drink, except J and I. We were ravenous! Didn't finish the fried rice though, it wasn't very nice. But it came with a bull's eye egg so yay! After lots of talking, no listening, cos I don't talk much in groups, which irritates my friends (shut up, Hannibal), we seperated, most of us for home.
Was nice being driven home. Just kept watching J most of the time.
*sigh*
Reached home at 12.30, which pissed my mom off but she was alrite after some therapeutic bitching.
I'm very hungry. I want lunch. PRAWN SAMBAL!
Be back tonite.
=D
I watched the musical Friday night. Quite nice actually! There was food but I didn't take any. Pls don't beat me up, Mel. I know you love free food. Muahahahah! Turns out we got complimentary tickets. J and I didn't know first, so he was very surprised to see all the food waiting to be gobbled up. More like unsettled. So when he got the tickets from Eswari, examined them and saw COMPLIMENTARY stamped on it, it was like a Sherlock Holmes moment. Ha!
Before all that, J and I went up to McDonalds cos I wanted to buy a drink. I bought ice lemon tea and we were walking out of the cafetaria when I spotted my ex. I looked away, panicking, uncertain as to whether I shld acknowledge him or not. I told J wat I saw and we looked over at the ex and his friends. He had a weird expression on his face, somewhere between pained and disgusted or something. I smiled guiltily and gave a little wave. It was absolutely horrible.
I wish someone told me there was free food, so that I wldn't have seen the need to go to McDonalds. $1.35 wasted too! Hmph. Hannibal finished it for me though, so it's not that bad, I guess. Still, I saw my ex. Urgh....
*covers face*
Anyway, back to the musical. It's a musical journey through time thingie. Lotsa of dancing, LOTS. And singing, and old hits. An Elvis Presley came on, the one that goes 'Wise men say, only fools rush in. But I can't help falling in looooooove with you'. Know that one? Well, J was singing it to me. =D
DON'T PUKE!
I was so so shy, I just didn't know what to do. I looked elsewhere, biting my lip, wishing he'd stop, while wishing he wldn't. Talk about split personalities. Heh!
So we watched the rest of the show, which as I mentioned, was nice. Except for the bitch though. Rashida. She made my ears bleed.
The show was over, my hair was untidy and my lipstick was probably non-existent. That's when J brought me over to his cousin, who was helping with the show, to introduce me to him. I wish I had a mirror man! Anyway, his cousin seemed sort of nervous or tensed or something. Think he had alot on his mind.
J drove the 6 of us, which includes himself, to this Ang Mo Kio neighbourhood eating place. The other 5 were Hannibal, Eswari, Daniel, Veni, and me ofcos! Everyone just had a drink, except J and I. We were ravenous! Didn't finish the fried rice though, it wasn't very nice. But it came with a bull's eye egg so yay! After lots of talking, no listening, cos I don't talk much in groups, which irritates my friends (shut up, Hannibal), we seperated, most of us for home.
Was nice being driven home. Just kept watching J most of the time.
*sigh*
Reached home at 12.30, which pissed my mom off but she was alrite after some therapeutic bitching.
I'm very hungry. I want lunch. PRAWN SAMBAL!
Be back tonite.
=D
Saturday, August 28, 2004
Friday, August 27, 2004
I changed my background, got it from Bigfoto. The images are generally not very impressive and don't look very professional. But some are good and I liked this, called Winter Tree, so I'm using it. Duh, rite?
I'm hurrying! I must vaccuum, bathe, dress up, which includes putting on my contacts, a process I absoluetly hate, and leave the house on time to meet J at Tampines from where we'll go to NYP, where we'll meet up with my friends, get seated and watch the musical. Whoa...long sentence, eh? Very Jane Austen. I wish!
See ya later, alligator!
I'm hurrying! I must vaccuum, bathe, dress up, which includes putting on my contacts, a process I absoluetly hate, and leave the house on time to meet J at Tampines from where we'll go to NYP, where we'll meet up with my friends, get seated and watch the musical. Whoa...long sentence, eh? Very Jane Austen. I wish!
See ya later, alligator!
You're living the movie Scream!
?? Which Horror Movie Are You Living ??
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AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*screams*
You're like a Unicorn!
?? Which Mythical Creature Are You ??
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Ok, this is nice. But it's praising me and not speaking much truth. Can't see any words, scroll sideways, ppl.
At least it doesn't accuse me of being proud. Hmph.
Youth
?? Which Angel Or Demon Are You ??
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Me, popular? The life of every party? BULLSHIT MAN!
Hahahaahahhahahaahhahahaha!
*dies*
You Are Pride !
You're competitive about most things. And feel
compelled
to constantly assure yourself of your greatness.
But hey,
It's not all bad - maybe you are that good! You
generally
look presentable, and are well educated because you
wouldn't let
yourself be any other way. People are intimidated
of you though,
so try and tone it down a bit - after all nobody is
perfect.
Congratulations ... You are the 'Best Kept' of the
7 deadly sins!
?? Which Of The Seven Deadly Sins Are You ??
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What the hell?!!
HMPH.
Wednesday, August 25, 2004
I posted this in on my bulletin board in Friendster but I don't have much to blog about, so I'm posting it here too. :-D
Stuff...I'm BORED.
What's your age?
I'll be 18 soon. My friends get pissed off when I
say I'm 17, which I still am! :-p
What are you doin now?
Wadya think? Filling out this thing cos I just
can't find anything else to do. I'm BORED.
What would you like to be doing now?
I'd like to be cycling in the park. But I need to
know how to cycle first. Ha!
What's the weirdest thing that happened to you?
This mentally-retarded man took my math book
from me and refused to give it back at a bus
stop. I gave up, I was late anyway, and
boarded the bus. When the bus started moving,
he started looking for me, presumably to give
my book back to me. Too late. BOOHOO!
What's the stupidest thing that happened to
you?
The above-mentioned incident qualifies but to
tell the truth, lots of stupid stuff happen to me,
so I've got lots to spare. I was on a bus with a
girlfriend. All was fine till the bus made a mighty
turn, making me gracefully slide out of my seat
and plop down. I slid down the aisle, stopping
only at the bus exit. I kept being asked if I was
alrite. Nope, I wasn't! My friend was having a
great time, though.
What do you wish never happened to you?
I was a little fat in primary school. I wish that
never happened cos although I've slimmed
down alot, some of the fat's here to stay and
it's very hard to get rid of. Bleah! Other than
that, I'm happy with my life, really.
What do you wish will happen to you?
True love, true happiness, the usual blah. Oh
and a satisfying career of entirely my choice.
What do you think won't happen to you?
Don't think there's much of a chance of me
killing someone, being killed, being shot, so on.
I'm pretty much harmless. But I've always found
the idea of castration intriguing... :-p
What's the best thing that happened to you?
Being born as a woman.
What's your favourite colour?
Red.
What are you wearing now?
What's this, cyber-sex? Heh! Yellow t-shirt and
red pants.
Do you normally leave your hair down or tie it
up?
I leave it down 80% of the time.
Do you wear lipstick?
At home, no way, but when I'm out, yes, all the
time.
What's in your bag?
Nothing. See, I don't carry a bag around at
home.
Are you a virgin?
*thinks real hard*
Which celebrity do you think you look like?
I dunno...Micheal Jackson? HAHA!
Who's your idol?
Well I don't really have an idol...but I love
Beyonce. Cos she's so damn hot! Like *ahem*
moi. Not! :-p
What would you like to change about yourself?
My hair. Lots of people like it and I think it's not
bad...but I'm bored! So I want to straighten it or
make it extremely curly or something. With
highlights. And I want to lose the 3kg I gained
(boohoo). Not telling wat I want to change about
my character cos there's no way I'm revealing
my innermost deficiencies to you ppl. Ha!
What do you wish for?
I thought this question was asked already?
Different answer now. I want no more boredom.
This question was prepared by me: Are you still
bored?
YEAH!
Stuff...I'm BORED.
What's your age?
I'll be 18 soon. My friends get pissed off when I
say I'm 17, which I still am! :-p
What are you doin now?
Wadya think? Filling out this thing cos I just
can't find anything else to do. I'm BORED.
What would you like to be doing now?
I'd like to be cycling in the park. But I need to
know how to cycle first. Ha!
What's the weirdest thing that happened to you?
This mentally-retarded man took my math book
from me and refused to give it back at a bus
stop. I gave up, I was late anyway, and
boarded the bus. When the bus started moving,
he started looking for me, presumably to give
my book back to me. Too late. BOOHOO!
What's the stupidest thing that happened to
you?
The above-mentioned incident qualifies but to
tell the truth, lots of stupid stuff happen to me,
so I've got lots to spare. I was on a bus with a
girlfriend. All was fine till the bus made a mighty
turn, making me gracefully slide out of my seat
and plop down. I slid down the aisle, stopping
only at the bus exit. I kept being asked if I was
alrite. Nope, I wasn't! My friend was having a
great time, though.
What do you wish never happened to you?
I was a little fat in primary school. I wish that
never happened cos although I've slimmed
down alot, some of the fat's here to stay and
it's very hard to get rid of. Bleah! Other than
that, I'm happy with my life, really.
What do you wish will happen to you?
True love, true happiness, the usual blah. Oh
and a satisfying career of entirely my choice.
What do you think won't happen to you?
Don't think there's much of a chance of me
killing someone, being killed, being shot, so on.
I'm pretty much harmless. But I've always found
the idea of castration intriguing... :-p
What's the best thing that happened to you?
Being born as a woman.
What's your favourite colour?
Red.
What are you wearing now?
What's this, cyber-sex? Heh! Yellow t-shirt and
red pants.
Do you normally leave your hair down or tie it
up?
I leave it down 80% of the time.
Do you wear lipstick?
At home, no way, but when I'm out, yes, all the
time.
What's in your bag?
Nothing. See, I don't carry a bag around at
home.
Are you a virgin?
*thinks real hard*
Which celebrity do you think you look like?
I dunno...Micheal Jackson? HAHA!
Who's your idol?
Well I don't really have an idol...but I love
Beyonce. Cos she's so damn hot! Like *ahem*
moi. Not! :-p
What would you like to change about yourself?
My hair. Lots of people like it and I think it's not
bad...but I'm bored! So I want to straighten it or
make it extremely curly or something. With
highlights. And I want to lose the 3kg I gained
(boohoo). Not telling wat I want to change about
my character cos there's no way I'm revealing
my innermost deficiencies to you ppl. Ha!
What do you wish for?
I thought this question was asked already?
Different answer now. I want no more boredom.
This question was prepared by me: Are you still
bored?
YEAH!
Monday, August 23, 2004
I'm too bored to blog, really. No mood at all. Don't fret, it'll pass. =D
Took this test.
Doubutsu Uranai-Colour Checking Thingie
Turns out I'm a orange monkey. Do I look like a bloody orange monkey to you?
Dhanya
December/19/1986
Female
You are Orange Monkey, who is lively, fresh and give an active impression.
Your personality is straight forward, and is a very attractive person to be with.
You are also very sociable, and can keep an eye on people too.
Nevertheless, you tend to be rather nervous and worry about things bit too much.
You tend to have a needless fear.
You come up with ideas very quickly, but at the same time, you can easily give up.
You lack perseverance.
You should be more open and natural to have a foresight for the future.
You have an instinct to attract people.
You are a charismatic person to whom people naturally get attracted.
You have a flexibility to be able to adapt to any circumstance, and know how to get ahead in life.
You never miss to calculate the profit and loss, and live life rationally.
This makes you difficult to have an intimate relationship.
Once you set an objective, you will work extremely hard to achieving it, and can exercise great tactics.
Nevertheless, you tend to easily change your target as well.
You tend to be very independent woman, and will hate to be restricted to your family.
You may start to feel your family to be an obstruction to your life.
If you can have a job that would act as a freshener, your life would be smoother.
You tend to have a fantasy world in your head, and may hold a girlish dream all through your life.
After getting married, your family will be important to you, and you will be able to raise a happy family.
Kind of true, really. I change targets and lose interest in them often. But what I like and love doing stays the same, such as art, writing, producing stuff with my hands and brains and mostly, my imagination. Interesting huh? NOT.
By the way...
HAPPY ANNIVERSARY TO J AND ME!!!
:-D
It's only been a month but it doesn't seem like it. Not in a bad way, in a very good, happified way. VERY happified. ;-)
Love you, J!!
Took this test.
Doubutsu Uranai-Colour Checking Thingie
Turns out I'm a orange monkey. Do I look like a bloody orange monkey to you?
Dhanya
December/19/1986
Female
You are Orange Monkey, who is lively, fresh and give an active impression.
Your personality is straight forward, and is a very attractive person to be with.
You are also very sociable, and can keep an eye on people too.
Nevertheless, you tend to be rather nervous and worry about things bit too much.
You tend to have a needless fear.
You come up with ideas very quickly, but at the same time, you can easily give up.
You lack perseverance.
You should be more open and natural to have a foresight for the future.
You have an instinct to attract people.
You are a charismatic person to whom people naturally get attracted.
You have a flexibility to be able to adapt to any circumstance, and know how to get ahead in life.
You never miss to calculate the profit and loss, and live life rationally.
This makes you difficult to have an intimate relationship.
Once you set an objective, you will work extremely hard to achieving it, and can exercise great tactics.
Nevertheless, you tend to easily change your target as well.
You tend to be very independent woman, and will hate to be restricted to your family.
You may start to feel your family to be an obstruction to your life.
If you can have a job that would act as a freshener, your life would be smoother.
You tend to have a fantasy world in your head, and may hold a girlish dream all through your life.
After getting married, your family will be important to you, and you will be able to raise a happy family.
Kind of true, really. I change targets and lose interest in them often. But what I like and love doing stays the same, such as art, writing, producing stuff with my hands and brains and mostly, my imagination. Interesting huh? NOT.
By the way...
HAPPY ANNIVERSARY TO J AND ME!!!
:-D
It's only been a month but it doesn't seem like it. Not in a bad way, in a very good, happified way. VERY happified. ;-)
Love you, J!!
Sunday, August 22, 2004
You're Most Like The Season Autumn ...
You're warm, and the most approachable. You have
that gentle prescence about you. People can
relate to you, and find you easy company.
However it's likely you've been hurt in the
past and it has left you scarred so things can
become rather chilly with you at times. Being
the third Season in, you're mature, trustworthy
and loyal to your friends but prone to
depression and negative thinking.
Well done... You're the shy and sensitive season :)
?? Which Season Are You ??
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Sounds like they're talking about someone else.
Thursday, August 19, 2004
You know when you're in a relationship, enjoying it and suddenly a thought comes across you; that this might be temporary? If you do know, you know what I'm going through now.
It's not like I never thought about the possibility of J and me being temporary. I knew better than to think it's going to last forever, after the thing with my ex. Just makes me a little sad. And surprised, with myself.
See, I always had this idea about me, that I was very traditional or something. Stick to the same guy always and never leave him unless you can't take him anymore, never enter a relationship which has the chance of ending, that kind of thing.
And what did I do? The right opposite of my 'convictions'. I left my ex when I knew I could have carried on with him, maybe happily. And I went on with J, having in mind that it could turn out to be anything, long-term or short-term. I never put a label on it. And I was fine with it, still am actually.
Looks like I don't know myself very well. Anybody got any newly found characteristics of mine they want to make me aware of? Heh.
Well yeah, this whole might-be-temporary thing makes me kind of sad. You get to know someone, like them, love them, only to let go? Doesn't seem worth the effort. Guess that's why Charlotte and Hannibal want to be single. Hell, I wanted to be single too. At least I thought I did. Turns out I just wanted to let go of my ex. Another instance of me misunderstanding myself. Wonder what else I'll do to prove myself wrong.
It not being worth the effort doesn't really matter to me really. Cos I like J and I like him enough to leave it at that, to see how it goes. You know, like whatever will be, will be and all that.
:-)
It's not like I never thought about the possibility of J and me being temporary. I knew better than to think it's going to last forever, after the thing with my ex. Just makes me a little sad. And surprised, with myself.
See, I always had this idea about me, that I was very traditional or something. Stick to the same guy always and never leave him unless you can't take him anymore, never enter a relationship which has the chance of ending, that kind of thing.
And what did I do? The right opposite of my 'convictions'. I left my ex when I knew I could have carried on with him, maybe happily. And I went on with J, having in mind that it could turn out to be anything, long-term or short-term. I never put a label on it. And I was fine with it, still am actually.
Looks like I don't know myself very well. Anybody got any newly found characteristics of mine they want to make me aware of? Heh.
Well yeah, this whole might-be-temporary thing makes me kind of sad. You get to know someone, like them, love them, only to let go? Doesn't seem worth the effort. Guess that's why Charlotte and Hannibal want to be single. Hell, I wanted to be single too. At least I thought I did. Turns out I just wanted to let go of my ex. Another instance of me misunderstanding myself. Wonder what else I'll do to prove myself wrong.
It not being worth the effort doesn't really matter to me really. Cos I like J and I like him enough to leave it at that, to see how it goes. You know, like whatever will be, will be and all that.
:-)
Tuesday, August 17, 2004
I added some links to my template and republished my blog. When I checked it after republishing like I always do, there was nothing except for a bloody advertisement and my red scrollbar.
Panicking, I went back to my template to see where I went wrong. Where I bloody went wrong was when I accidentally deleted more than half of my template, leaving just the codes for the scrollbar.
AAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
This always happens to me. Always. To me.
I'm using the original template now. Retrieved my chatterbox code, so that works. I'll redo my beautiful template another time. :-(
*cries uncontrollably*
Panicking, I went back to my template to see where I went wrong. Where I bloody went wrong was when I accidentally deleted more than half of my template, leaving just the codes for the scrollbar.
AAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
This always happens to me. Always. To me.
I'm using the original template now. Retrieved my chatterbox code, so that works. I'll redo my beautiful template another time. :-(
*cries uncontrollably*
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