Lately I've been having trouble telling the difference between being self-absorbed and being genuinely concerned about my well-being. Where does the line get drawn? It'd be nice to know for sure. Being fickle about this isn't fun.
I've come to a point where I am wondering if I should leave it to fate, or actively try wade through muck. But really, should I be thinking about this at all?
I just saw a post on facebook on children whose bodies are fed drugs or alcohol so that they are always asleep while some strangers carry them around and beg ppl for money. Horrible, yet not unbelievable. It takes a special brand of evil to carry out such acts, karma in action or not. How is something like this justified?
Such things really put my problems into perspective. There are mothers out there whose kids are missing, whose kids are being sold for sex, or are dead after their innocence and bodies have been exploited. There are fathers whose kids they cannot dream of seeing again. Parents who sell their children for money. Children being kidnapped for ransom, and eventually killed. Young people growing up to think that life is only to be endured, and nothing else. And me, a grown woman, mulling over my worries which 'trivial' doesn't even begin to describe, in comparison. A grown woman with a job, a house to live in, a good family, and a fully-functional body, and an internet connection. Wtf, right?
So I'll appreciate my blessings. Let go of worries, one by one. Distance myself from negativity.
Can't be difficult.
I've come to a point where I am wondering if I should leave it to fate, or actively try wade through muck. But really, should I be thinking about this at all?
I just saw a post on facebook on children whose bodies are fed drugs or alcohol so that they are always asleep while some strangers carry them around and beg ppl for money. Horrible, yet not unbelievable. It takes a special brand of evil to carry out such acts, karma in action or not. How is something like this justified?
Such things really put my problems into perspective. There are mothers out there whose kids are missing, whose kids are being sold for sex, or are dead after their innocence and bodies have been exploited. There are fathers whose kids they cannot dream of seeing again. Parents who sell their children for money. Children being kidnapped for ransom, and eventually killed. Young people growing up to think that life is only to be endured, and nothing else. And me, a grown woman, mulling over my worries which 'trivial' doesn't even begin to describe, in comparison. A grown woman with a job, a house to live in, a good family, and a fully-functional body, and an internet connection. Wtf, right?
So I'll appreciate my blessings. Let go of worries, one by one. Distance myself from negativity.
Can't be difficult.
Yea, I know what you mean by that. I find myself trapped in this mundane reality where microscopically trivial things are magnified to such a great degree that its hard to put things in perspective. The longer you focus on how bad you have things (as compared to others who enjoy the same standard of life that you do), the more likely you are to become ungrateful for things you already have.
ReplyDeleteThe more ungrateful you get, the angrier you get over those same trivialities and before long you'll find yourself lashing out at inanimate objects like lift doors that take too long to open and computers that take a microsecond longer than you have patience for it to load.
What you've described in your post is life for 98% of the world. You and I are part of that blessed 2% who have escaped that statistic. I'd like to believe we're part of the 2% for a bigger reason.
You probably one of those people who find reality and small problems too minuscule in importance to deal with. That, is probably because you were made for a purpose larger than you think you've been made for.
So find that purpose for your life. The minute you do, you'll find that negativity flying out the window.
:)
Exactly. Exactly, exactly. Could you please find a like-minded individual and pro-create, if you haven't already?
ReplyDeleteI'd like to believe that we think this way for a bigger reason, too, although I can't think of any now. Guess I shall wait for that minute where I find the main purpose for my life, if I at all do. And I hope you've found yours, cos you sound like a pretty nice person (if you aren't a robot programmed to comment on grey blogs)!
It's so tiring, having to view what are practically non-issues as issues, just cos we're surrounded by people who do who'd probably be offended if we went, "so what?" Haha. It's nice to know that there're more who feel the same. :)
"It's so tiring, having to view what are practically non-issues as issues, just cos we're surrounded by people who do who'd probably be offended if we went, "so what?" Haha. It's nice to know that there're more who feel the same. :)"
ReplyDeleteAh, gosh. You have no idea how much truth you have just spoken. Funny innit, how alike we think on this? Lol. You say alot of things here just the way I might in fact.
And, no i'm not a robot, although at the rate things are progressing I might just wind up becoming one like the rest of lot in this world, if i'm not watching myself.
And well, I found my purpose a long time ago, nothing can describe that moment of epiphany, I haven't looked back since.
I'll be praying for you everyday to find it too. :)
In the meantime, blog away! You make an entertaining read.
I swear I didn't see this till now! Grr.
ReplyDeleteGood luck on watching yourself there...making soft growling noises help me unwind a bit, maybe that'll help you too? Haha. And I think your prayers are working! I MIGHT have found something for myself. Yay! :-D
Thank you, stranger-friend. I shall call you that, stranger-friend. :)))