So, I'm 19. Do I feel any different? I'd have to say no...after much consideration. 19 is just a number and I've a year added to my young age, is all. Maturity(character-wise) doesn't come with age, I can find LOTSA living proof for that. Me, I'm waiting for maturity to hit me in the face before it settles down in my brain. Wait..no, scratch that.

Truth be told, I'm not waiting to mature in thought and the like, cos I'm pretty fine the way I am. Very fine, in fact. Sure, I do lack some facets that might improve my life, and the lives of others arnd me, but really, I don't see why anyone shld cultivate something that isn't part of them to begin with. I mean, it's not like I'm going on killing sprees or making it a point to feed the lions at the zoo just to experience the thrill of defying authority or something stupid like that. I'm a very behaved person...if you really think abt it. Therefore, I see no need to consciously change my child-like ways. Child-like, not childish. There is a difference, however seemingly small. Being child-like doesn't mean you're immature.

Besides, what's the big deal abt being mature anyway?

Why shld I give a damn abt maturing when I am happy with who I am? Frankly, it's quite a big thing for me to be happy with myself. Think abt it. I started on a diploma course that I knew for a fact that lots of others were clamouring for a place in, but I stubbornly quit it cos I hated it and am now 19 with absolutely no educational achievement except for 'O' Levels which is like no achievement at all. It's very easy for me to feel like a loser with no future, but I don't, not one bit. I'll be putting myself thru school next year. I know I'm young, and even if I weren't, I'd know there're options out there no matter what. If being mature means I shld put ppl like me down, stop being idealistic(which I'm damn sure I'm not), 'behave' myself in public, and stop making decisions by myself and listen more, I'm not interested.

I'm leaving it to time and more suitably, my experiences to teach me btr ways of living, or dealing with difficulties and situations and such. I don't have the habit of listening unless it's absolutely essential. What I do have the habit of is jumping in and seeing what I can do from there. That's how I do it, so they shld get used to it.

To hell with maturity. I've got other things to see to.

P.S: This was supposed to be a happy post...so the next one I do will be a happy and bimbotic one. :-p

P.P.S: Jay, this isn't abt you. =)